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Today I went out for my first wog…..wogging is a combination of walking and jogging….I haven’t ran in many years…..so wogging is the way to go…

On this site we read hundreds of blogs over time…..most are boring….some do encourage…..some make us laugh….some make us say thank god I not that bad….and how many blogs the blogger claims an ephiany that this is the time….and you look at their tracker and it looks like a hillbillies mouth….then there is the occasional blog that really helps….

I ran across one of those blogs the other day…..the women was talking about her love of running…..how she started and recommended a book “No Need for Speed; a beginners guide to running….years ago I was a runner and if your not a runner or were ever one you cannot comprehend the benefits of being a committed runner….this blog triggered some really good memories….I have given up running because my knees couldn’t handle it….it wasn’t the running……..it was that I was carrying 275 lbs on a 67″ inch body…..

The other day at the gym…..was doing my morning cardio….I love morning cardio….get to the gym at 0515….the body has not awakened yet….the mind is alert….have to have that first cup of coffee…..you start and the muscles start getting warm…..the heart and lungs follow before you know the cob webs are lifted and you ready to sieze the day…..I love watching music videos during my AM workout….there are 4 stations…..you have the music and sight stimulation at the same time…..plus its cool that a 50 year old guy knows who Lady Gaga is and Cobey Coulet…..the young people at work crack up that I know the lyrics to the music they listen to….anyway the cable company eliminated all music channels…..so I was a little annoyed that I wouldn’t be getting my music video connection….so that’s when that blog hit me…..you need to start running again and no excuses….so I went on the library system and ordered the book….it could take weeks before I get…..but I do have the knowledge to get this thing started…..

We have some very crappy raining weather here in NY…..so I promised myself if the gods allowed it I would lace on the sneakers and get this started…..woulnd’t you know it not only was it not raining today….we are forecasted for rain…..it was sunny…..laced up the sneakers and grabbed the I-Pod…..and went out for my first Wog…..

It was great to be out in the fresh air……started my walk….got things loosened up and started to jog….if felt great it wasn’t that much of an effort….I was expecting some knee pain there was none…..went back to walking…and then jog….usually when you start a running program you lungs and heart can’t keep up the pace….but I do a lot of cardio…..so my heart and lungs were doing great…..as I was jogging my legs said “Yo asshole what are you doing….you haven’t done this in very long time…are you trying to hurt us”…..so I used common sense and didn’t push myself….don’t want to cause an injury…

So I guess what I am saying is that you keep looking at those blogs….some where along the line….there is something there for you….

Ate according to plan. 

40 minutes of cardio…………..0500

45 minutes of cardio……………1200

45 minutes of weight training……..1900

Yoga class one hour……….

Yes is Friday……..Not much going on………had a really good week diet and exercise were all good……leaving myself some room for the weekend…….My goal for this weekend…..is not to binge……I want to learn to have a few drinks……..and not head right for Burger King afterwards…….On Sunday I want to be able to have drink a couple of beers and not totally binge on BBQ…….and have a sliver of desert instead of eating so much sugar that I am dizzy afterwards……those are my 2 goals for the weekend……Friday night drinks……no fast food……Sunday not to be a total pig………and of course I will exercise and hopefully I dont spend the next week working off my weekend orgies……

Last weekend totally lost control and binged……..the whole nine yards…..touched every base….

I stepped up exercise this week…..stuck to my eating plan…..didnt get on the scale all week to avoid mental issues involving the binge…..

My normal weigh in day is Friday at the same time……….well can’t weigh myself tomorrow….so I hoped on the scale today……

I have a 2 lb weight gain……I really gave it my all but it wasn’t enough……so I am at the yellow zone in my weight loss journey…..I need to proceed with caution…….and this weekend I will be off plan at least 2 days……and there will be alchohol involved……which is my achilles heel…..haven’t come up with weekend goals yet…….this is where I am in danger of heading into the red zone……the zone that is a set your journey backwards and could last for weeks…….

With that being said……this is not a pity party…..its just voicing what is going on inside my fat brain……on the good side of things……someone gave me a great compliment today……”you look like a movie star”…..it took awhile for the swelling to go down…….When I meditate in the am…..I will figure out a weekend plan…….

Yesterday was another good day I did all the right things and there were no bumps in the road.

Ate according to plan no deviations.

1 hour cardio 0500

1 hour deep tissue massage…..I have rewarded myself because I deserve it….to an hour massage once a week….this is 5 weeks in a row…..and its money I save from not eating lunches out and buying fast food…….I think I am in love with my massause…..

40 minutes weight traing  1830

The biggest challange of the day was the family ordered pizza last night…….I love pizza and will eat even when on plan……but this week if anybody is familiar with my blogs I am on a mission to lose a pound…..so eating pizza could really upset the apple cart…..just for this week…..I don’t believe in absoult NO’S……because I am childlike if you tell me NO all I can think about is doing what I am not told to do……

so anyway this pizza was sitting on the table all night…..there were two not so good slices colds sitting there……without even noticing it……I would walk by the pizza it would call my name…..I might have opened the box 4 0r 5 times to look at the left over pizza……what was it going to grow pepperoni…..let me check again maybe this time it grew meatballs…..better yet let me check again maybe it to warm and grew sausage……one trip I even picked of some cold dried cheese off the box and ate that….you know when you peel it off the carboard and some of the carboard gets stuck to the cheese………

I am in the green zone of dieting this week…..so I was able to avoid the pizza……..if I were in the yellow zone of dieting I would have had 2 slices for dinner……If I were in the Red Zone where dieters should never be……I would have eaten…..4 slices……so I am happy to be in the green zone….. 

The diet journey is like any other road trip……when you have a green light you are moving along without any worries……a yellow light means proceed with caution be prepared…..and if you have a red light you most likely will crash….

Last week I was on The Autobahn…..doing 165 miles an hour nothing could go wrong…..I made it into the onderland for the first time since 1982….the weekend hit and the fat brain took over and little by little started abandoning my plan…..tried to put the breaks on but slid right through the intersection….

This is the pivotal point of the journey…..if at this juncture you dont take the right corrective measures…..your diet will crash and you could spend weeks getting back on track….

The first corrective action was not to weigh myself and let the fat brain make the situation get worse….so I don’t know what damage was done from the weekend….which was an all out binge…..including alcohol….I say that for a reason…..I cannot consume alcohol and lose weight….its a fact….

So I am still proceding with caution….made the commitment to step up exercise and not to deviate one iota from my eating plan…..have done both steps flawlessly so far this week…..

So the next pit fall going through this yellow light is my weigh in on Friday…..I have banked the fact that I will lose a pound…..if that pound doesn’t come through….I need to be careful that I dont let that be an excuse to binge this coming weekend…….

Needless to say….I am very anxious about weigh in day this week…..

Stuck to my diet plan.

30 mintues cardio 0500

30 minutes weight trainng 1200

Went food shopping  to stay on plan.

Cooked food to stay on plan.

Raindrops keep fallin’ on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin’ seems to fit
Those raindrops are fallin’ on my head, they keep fallin’

So I just did me some talkin’ to the sun
And I said I didn’t like the way he got things done
Sleepin’ on the job
Those raindrops are fallin’ on my head, they keep fallin’

But there’s one thing I know
The blues they send to meet me won’t defeat me
It won’t be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin’ on my head
But that doesn’t mean my eyes will soon be turnin’ red
Cryin’s not for me
‘Cause I’m never gonna stop the rain by complainin’
Because I’m free
Nothin’s worryin’ me

[trumpet]

It won’t be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin’ on my head
But that doesn’t mean my eyes will soon be turnin’ red
Cryin’s not for me
‘Cause I’m never gonna stop the rain by complainin’
Because I’m free
Nothin’s worryin’ me

“I ain’t seen the sunshine since I don’t know when”

Johnny Cash

Thats sums up the North East weather…..starting to frazzle the nerves….and if like most emotinal eaters….that gives us an excuse to feel bad……..and in turn we eat to feel better…..

This weekend totally binged could have 15,000 calories in 3 days…..I did not get on the scale Monday…..did not want to know what the damage is….I weigh myself daily just to get an idea which way I am headed….this week I don’t plan on getting on the scale until Friday…

My goal this week is to show a loss any loss will be a good loss…..I am focused on my goal and will give 110 percent to acheive this goal….

Things I did yesterday to acheive my goal of a loss for the week.

Cleaned out my closet and got rid of any shirt that is XXL or Larger and any pants that were more than a 38 inch waist……so now I have no choice but to maintain my weight loss…..just went out and get all new clothes….

Ate according to plan
35 minutes of cardio at 0500
45 minutes of cardio at Noon
45 minutes of weight training at 1730

The weekend is always a battle…..this weekend I totally lost the battle…..it started Friday and ended last night……….many causualities……..not going to give the details…….lets just say the last thing I ate before I went to bed last night was a 5 scoop sundae from Friendlys….

So this morning I feel very sluggish fat and not so good about myself…….but I am going to the gym……its important at this point not to play the bad movie that this weekend was over and over in my head…..

The fat brain tells me to get on the scale later and access the damage……..I the healthy brain needs to sit back and take charge…….getting on the scale today is a fat headed move……..it most likely will show a couple pounds gain……so I can beat myself up about the gain…..and eat some more because what the heck I effed up already….or worse yet the scale lies and says that I stayed the same……..then the fat brain kicks in……you see you can eat poorly and still do this thing…..

That is why the healthy brain is not getting on the scale today and might not until it has 3 or 4 days of good eating and exercise underneath its belt………hopefully in a few days I will be the same weight or a little less………. 

This is the first weekend in many that I have fallen off the cliff……..during the week I am super star health and diet expert……and on the weekends I become a glutaneous Roman…..it started on Friday with a late night binge…..some alcohol involved…..yesterday wasn’t as bad…..but more alcohol involved……today there is more eating and drinking plan….so the winter blues have melted away…….but the downside…..is spending most of the week to fix the damage from the weekends………

there are no little fixes for me when partying is involved…….it doesn’t help if I eat a salad before I go……no I wont pick on the celery and carrot sticks and not dip them in the ranch dressing…….so I am having a fun filled weekend and next week won’t be able to move the scale…………it is what it is…………

This week was very good week for me…….exercise, diet and work were all clicking……..running on all cyclinders as they say……..I broke the 200 lb mark this was such a break through……I think that is where the problem starts…….can mentally damaged people who use food to control emotions be sucessful?

Yesterday I just did not feel right……..I had that impending doom feeling…….I had to go into the city for a doctors appointment……..whenever I go into Manhattan I have to get a slice of pizza……NY pizza is the best……sorry Chicago……..since I had the break through I decided I wasn’t going to get the pizza……..the first mistake that the fat brain made…..I am on Atkins and pizza is like Kyrptonite………I got a piece of broiled chicken instead……the whole time thinking about pizza……..I spent the next 15 minutes looking for a no carb snack…….couldn’t find one……..did without…..

Got back to work…….couldn’t get rid of that impending doom fear…….this weekend I have a communion coming up…….so I knew that I would be going off the diet for that day……..stuck with my diet all day including dinner………after dinner I started eating skillets……..the fat brain……..went bereserck…..”Yes I finally got some”…….

It was Friday night so I decided to go out for some beers…………..had four beers…..that shouldn’t destroy my diet………..my fat brain started to talk again…….”you know you havent had any fast food in 2 months, what do you say buddy?”……….the four beers and the skitlle binge was enough to shut off the healthy, thin and energetic brain off……went to Mickey D’s……………chicken wrap, fries, 4 piece nugget and a double cheese burger…….there was a park n ride………I ate my food like I was cheating on my significant other……in the cover of darkness……..a car pulled alongside me……it must be one of those gay park n ride…..he looked in my window………and seen me stuffing  my semi-fat face…..he pulled away and kept checking other cars for his amore………he knew this guy had a love that he would never cheat on……

The good thing about days is that they have only 24 hours and they are over……….today is new…………and yesterday is gone………no longer does what happen yesterday set the mood and diet for the following day……..having my coffee and then heading to the gym to get a good workout in……..and will get right back on the diet………….leaving the baseball bat in the garage and no taking it out and beating myself with it……….