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had a chance to browse the blogs today……….I noticed a common theme………there seems to be much regret……….and true confessions………that dominate the pages on Mondays………….which I could change the theme………but that would not be possible……..

My weekend actually started on Wednesday…………eating wise it started pretty good and as the weekend progressed………..the sins got a little worse until it became mortal sin……….Friday……..my glutenous sin entailed a magnum of wine and 3 slices of pizza the good kind……sausage, pepperoni and meatball……..

Saturday more of the same and then some………….had about 12 beers………ate chips, dips and cold antipasto………….I was just getting warmed up……..we had an Italian buffet……..and I might have had 3 dishes of food………none of it was low in fat………I don’t eat refined carbs……..I had the Penney and I had spaghetti with clam sauce…….had a big o slice of cake……..there was a nice garden salad………I thought it might give me the plague……..so I didn’t want to take chance and cause a chemical reaction by mixing healthy fare with the various fried foods I was eating………anyway isn’t there a tomato scare…….then just to make sure that I felt really good I washed this down with 4 cups of coffee…….I did not sleep well Saturday………not sure why……..

to compensate………for my mis-deeds……….I did get some good workouts in……….Sunday was tough……..the combination of the food, alcohol and humidity………was taking its toll…….I did not feel well at all………..I did drag my butt to the gym………and my whole workout………..promising never to do this again………felt pretty decent after my work out……..one more event left for the weekend………..Went to the Met-Yankee game……..my goal for the day was not to over indulge or have any alcohol……….I stuck to my eating plan and no beers………..

so I thought I could trick the scale………..by being a good boy on Sunday…………well of course this plan did not work……..

When I got on the scale……….last Wednesday I weighed 211.5………….for my behavior the number was 213.5………..some have suggested……..that I should wait before I get on the scale……….but my thinking is that I need to remind myself the trouble that I have created for myself…….I am at a barrier right now………I so want to be under 210 lbs and I can taste victory……….the problem is…….its the friggin Summer and there is so many opportunities…….to not stick on plan…….this week I have another 4 day weekend……..and next week I have a 5 day weekend………and this puppy needs structure……..so this is my confession……..

and my penitence is not breaking the 210 mark…………..

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my number is 171……………….that is my max heart rate…………….220 minus my age 49 equals……171………….and when I do cardio I should work at least 65 percent and not more than 85 precent of my max……………for me 111 - 123 is a low intesity workout………..known as the fat burning zone………….124 - 146 is my high intensity workout………….known as cardiovasular………….in this zone I am increasing my heart fitness……………so with this knowledge you can use any cardio machine and measure what you are doing…….

today was one of those days……………..I only had 4 hours of sleep………..for a good reason…………so that helps…………..I have the day off from work………….so none of this matter………..got out of bed at 0900……………..and surf the web………just dogged tired……….even to lazy to get a cup of coffee……………headed out to the gym about 1230………..not sure what I was going to do once I got there…………..I exercise 7 days a week…………..and I am flexible……….with what I do when I get there……….today I was tired………….so on the way thinking……………okay light weights………….light and short cardio…………….

one I first started lifting…………it was light…………..after a few sets…………I felt pretty warmed up and wound having a strong work out………….that was an hour long………my tiredness feeling…………..was leaving my body and mind……………I started my cardio routine…………..my first heart rating was 137……………this is a good one it means I’m working hard…………..its a good idea to do weight training………..it raises your heart rate………….and revs up you metobolism………….and the added muscle helps burn fat all day……………..once you hop off a cardio machine………….the revving is over……..

the cardio was really revving me up……………I guess because I wasnt rushing anywhere and didnt really have anything pressing……………I decided…………lets do an hour……………the training felt great…………….one of my favorite quotes “Freedom just another word for nothing else to lose”…………….thats the way I felt about my cardio…………had nothing pressing on my mind…………….and I could put my heart and soul into this baby…………I dindnt have to preserve any energy…………just dont need none for the rest of the day………….I was on the elipitcal machine……………and doing interval training………..the highest level I made up to number 17………….my legs were screaming…………..my heart rate hit 170 at its highest point………..

when I left the gym……………I was physically drained………….it felt great………….instead of celebrating………….by getting me a carvel sundae……………I went right next door…………to Steve and Barrys and bought some more new clothes that fit me………

yesterday………….estatic…………weighed in at 212………………go on again………..211.5………more estatic……………..off for the rest of the week so go this my structure………..I am so dying to weigh 209………………but life might be getting in the weigh………..prom is tonight………….and ate 9 tonight……………going to a chinese buffet……………not good………….tonight I will be up worrying about my babies…………..they never stay out past 11pm………….they will be out until 0400…………..and the party bus gets back………I will have to get out of bed to pick them up…………..tommorrow……..I have to start doing things 60 people coming to my house on Saturday………….Saturday is there party…………….so the diet will be out the window…………..lots of beer drinking…………and good Italian Food………..Sunday is going to be a problem……..going to the Met game…………….hot dogs and beers involved again…………guess I am going to work extra hard next week……………

got an extra work-out today……..my employees………for the past few weeks………..have been asking me for cabinet space………I kept saying are you sure……….I know there is room out there……….I was reassured there is no way………….sorry old man here………….. the younger generation………just dont quite understand what it means to be productive………….and that work requires effort………..so I went out and did it myself……..some drawers stuffed…………..some empty…………….it wasnt too hard to figure out………just a lot of sweat………..took 2 1/2 hours………..I freed up 7 drawers out of 37……….I guess the young ones are smarter…………..because they go the old man to do it……….they still get the same pay……..

the upside……….I dont get on the scale in the afternoon…………..I weigh myself at the gym in our building………..so I got the rest of the week off and wont be able to get back on until Monday……….the great news is that I weighed 212…………my lowest weight since the early eighties……….. 

This morning at the gym……….this guy stopped me dead in my tracks……..what is different about you?……….you shaved your beard……..never head a beard……….the other guy says……..you look years younger………..you shaved your mustache…………another one chimes in…………”its like the twilght zone he just keeps getting younger looking”……..

What they didnt realize was that…………..I was now wearing gym clothes that fit me and were new…………when it comes to clothes I can be really frugal……..being heavy never invested good money for clothes………my gym wear was very ratty…….wearing XXXL and XXL………..shorts were falling off of me………only had 3 pairs of shorts…………..2 had various air condtioning holes……….my new personal trainer is a female…………this motivated me to get new gym wear………I like having a women as a trainer……….gets me to lift more and work harder……..just trying to be macho………

I was always a beleiver that appearances doesn’t matter………..its whats on the inside that counts……..that is still a beleif of mine………but when I was heavier I used it as an excuse…….not to be that concerned about my appearance…….being a little older and wiser………I have come to realize that first impressions is what matters…………I have lost many oppurtunities……….not paying attention to first impressions………

today I rode baby for an hour………..its Monday so I like to ride her slow and long………..baby is so good to me……….she is compliant lover………..she never put demands on me………its about how my body feels that day…………whenever riding baby I try to connect with my higher power……..using visualization to soothe the mind and the body……..

There were two things stressing this morning…………which made my ride a little difficult…………the first stressor………was its Monday and the scale was not going to kind to me this morning……..my baby is the eliptical machine……….my mistress is the Ipod………….and the scale is my kids……….as we know in most relationships………kids can be a major plus………….and at times are a major sort of angst…………

this weekend was not a good weekend for controlled healthy eating………….I over ate on Saturday………okay with that………Sunday was not good………up until 7pm……..the only thing I had to eat was 2 meal replacement bars and a hard boiled egg………….I really would like to find the person responsible……..that thought it would be a good idea to have……..young impressionable girls………hook up with with psychotic young marginally talented ladies……….who think that they are highyly talented and that the world revolves around them……….and have them teach them dance…………and at the end of the year…………..put together a show that lasts……….3 hours and 45 minutes……….with no comedic value……….and lets face it………..the first set of pre-k’s are cute and adorable………the 5th set…. seen that and done that………….not so cute anymore……..there was one blonde who dominated the show………count em 13 numbers…………I come to find out she was an instructor……….it took all my will……..not to confront her……….your are not that wonderful because if you were………you would be on Broadway……….sorry this was my second recitial this season……….so when it came time to BBQ………I was not in control………….not one piece of ice cream…………I had two………

the scale was not kind to me………….I am 2 pounds heavier than I was last Monday………..so most the week will be spent trying to regain my previous loss……….thats okay………..I feel friggin wonderful……..

my second stressor…………is the week ahead………..my girls have prom Wednseday…………..grad on Friday………on a party on Saturday……….the prom she be a piece of cake……….nothing to do……….except stress out and wait for them to get home from prom night……………..the grad………….didnt call the right people……..so now I have 6 tickets and not really sure who is coming…………big HS……….the grad is a 3 hour event…………we all know how much I love long drawn out events………….Saturday I have 60 people coming………….and I’m running the affair……………I did remember to order food……….after that the details are sketchy……..havent done anything else………..chit chatting last night……….someone asked “where did you order the cake”………at this point I started to sweat……..not realizing that I had to order once…………and if I forgot this pretty important detail…………..there much be many more gaffes that are coming my way……….need to start focusing on this………..btw……….I have two jobs……….so not sure how to figure this one out…………..will be taking 2 days off just in case if there are things that I have to do before the party………………wish me luck………..

Had a great day yesterday………….did so much in both play and work…………went out for a birthday celebration last night………………and just ate everything that I wanted…….bread basket………you know with the olive oil……….the croutons stayed in the Casesar Salad and the lettuce was doing a backstroke in the dressing…………not being drizzled on…………….what does one order if they dont eat any refined carbs is part of the regimin………you guessed it pasta………………and whats the sense of eating all this delicious food and not having desert………there is non………….ice cream the poison I chose…….

okay…………….not is time to deal with the fat brain……………….the first emotion to deal with is guilt……….you know ”can’t beleive I ate the whole thing”……….well my healthy brain is starting to take over…………..no I did not feel guilt…………nothing but pleasure……….think about it………………..eating like this once a week…………..will not sabotage your efforts………getting to know body better………..this sometimes kick starts additional weight…………the fat brain tells you F upped and now you are going to pay………….and with that you tend to go off to the races……………….healthy brain says that was good…………but then notices how different he feels……………..the overating feeling just isnt pleasant and it does effect your mood.

This morning when I woke up……………..I felt hungover and there was no alcohol involved………I felt a hunger pain in the am……………when I’m eating healthy………….I dont get hunger pains……..so know the fat brain starts thinking………….I feel kind of lazy should I go to the gym…………..healthy brain……………..says of course……….fat brian says………….hungary man breakfast is the way to go……………healthy brain says………….you will fill better if you get in a workout……….well as you can see this tennis match in my brain went on for quite awhile…………..well hung out and had a few cups of coffee………so the fat brain was winning out…………….the healthy brain was hanging on…………….but by the time I decided to go to the gym………….I was short on time…………..so know I am convincing myself that this workout was useless………….the point here is that the consious mind needs to be silenced and we need to make these changes deep and on the inside…………..so I am learning to disregard my thoughts and go with I know to be true…………..that eating healthy and exercise will leave me with a thinner body…………….get to the gym and decide lite weight and cardio…………….some  how my inner mind took over and I had a very strong work-out with the weights…………..and feel great physically and know that meal I had last night just doesnt mean anything……….it was just a celebration………

what a great day……………..the sun is shining………….this is the first time I sat down at the computer and its 0930 am………….in the past by time I woke up had 3-4 cups of coffee just be able to move……………and before you know it it was noon……………so far today I have lifted weights for 45 minutes…………..did an hour cardio……….laundry……….made lunches for the week…………..and then heading for a relaxing day on the beach………….knot worrying about what I have to do when I get home…..

In my new quest to keep moving…………..I started a new habit…………….I put my socks on and tie my shoes while standing up…………….no more sitting or using a chair………it is a great way to get great balance…………..and provide a good strech……….tying laces while standing up……….

to all have a great day……….. 

I am madly in love for the first time in my life………………I have found a better half……….she is always there for me………..and accepts me for who I am………her hands are connected to my heart………..she tell me exactly what how my heart is reacting to her…………her arms assist me and protect my heart……..

getting closer to my mini goal………………in 2 weeks I will be able to say………..I weigh 20 something………..cant wait to get out of the teens……………..life is good…………got my 1 lb loss for the week………..next week going to be big…………I can feel it…………..