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Well the big night is here can’t wait for midnight, give a few kisses and maybe home by 1230 the latest.  Years ago I would be devasted with this plan if I could get away with it I wouldn’t even stay up that late but not sense in getting the girlfriend angry with me.  I have done a great job during the holidays and dont plan on blowing over this non-holiday……………its only a turn on the calander.

Never the less it does involve booze, food and sweets so I need to sort of know what I plan on doing about it.

1. Am workout 45 mins cardio

2. PM workout 60 mins cardio

3. Consumed about 1,000 calories so far, more than but eating later in the day, dont want to arrive famished.

4. Allowed to eat anything I want in reason.

5. Sip green tea all night, no alcohol major binge drinker and eater.

6. No nuts of any type, they are addicting and 500 calories can be consumed in a few minutes.

7. Sweets are to be limited at most a sliver of cake or 1 piece of candy.

Happy New Year

Today’s Quote

When you are reluctant to change, think of the beauty of autumn.

-submitted by vbbro

Food Log

Exercise Log

3 weeks ago my morning routine would have consisted waking up tired and groggy brewing a pot of coffee and sitting by the computer until noon after 3 cups of coffee and playing a tennis match in my head should I go to the gym or not by now my girlfriend has called and is starting to put that pressure on when you coming over, so the gym went out the window and most other chores.

Today woke up refreshed and energetic the reason is since 12/02/07 I eliminated coffee from my life. Using caffeine for your energy needs is not a good idea, you addicted coffee addicts know what I’m talking about. The first time I gave up drinking coffee the first time I went cold turkey and no lying I had a headache for 5 days. What’s good about a coffee addiction is something that you can eliminate you do need it like we need food.

While doing the dishes this morning, (because I cant seem to get my 2 17 yr old girls to do them without asking, any ideas that don’t involve cattle prods or whips), I realized how great I felt. So this morning instead of sitting by the computer for hours I spent about ½ hours paying bills and surfing this site and I cleaned out my laundry/pantry room.

This room has been a mess for a couple of months and I would say “I really need to clean this room”, so promised to do it but never did.

I know I’m rambling I always do, my point here is that as a fat person I need to conserve energy and pick my spots and have to play mental games to trick myself into doing it. This morning while loading the laundry I once again said to myself “you have to clean this room”. The big difference here is that I popped on my I-Pod and cleaned out the damn room, the big project that I thought would take a couple of hours wound up taking about ½ hour.

While cleaning the room there was a jumbo pack of coffee filters yeah from a warehouse club maybe 5,000 and I used like 100. Since I was cleaning the pantry I was getting rid of the stuff that we buy and never use so I was throwing out stuff and I found myself not throwing out the filters and it hit me you are setting yourself up to drink coffee again because why do you need filers if your not making coffee. So I threw the filters out and when I came across 2 cans of coffee unopened I threw them out also. I don’t want to sabotage my efforts, so if I want to get in the habit of drinking coffee it wont be that easy.

I need to keep reminding myself of the old computer term GIGO garbage in garbage out.

Our bodies are perfect machines that God built for us and we are the mechanics it is our responsibility to maintain a perfectly built machine. If our cars are not maintained the do not run properly and the same goes for our bodies. I have paid a major price for not maintaining my body in the way of getting cancer, high blood pressure and high cholesterol.

There are old car enthusiasts out there that love to restore antique cars I am going to consider myself a antique car and going to restore it to its previous condition.

For those of you who are not aware of 12 step programs the word HALT is an acroymn for:

Hungary

Anger

Lonely

Tired

When fighting an addiction it is recomended that you pay attention to these four conditions.  So the next time you find yourself getting ready to go off your diet stop and say to yourself and say ‘HALT” and before you start eating analyze why you are about to do what you are doing.

Hungary - maybe the diet isn’t right for you if you are physically hungary, if you are really hungary then eat something nutritous, if you not phyiscally hungary ask yourself the following 3 questions.

Anger - most of need to find a way to handle our anger, you need to find ways dealing with your anger for me exercise helps, take action for the for the cause of anger, or just acknowleging that you are angry instead of hungary could help.

Lonely - youre not physically hungary and not angry, you could be lonely or I want to include bordom here.  I have join this website it gives me a chance to vent and talk about weight issues with others in the same boat, guys cant go to a co worker, damn I feel lonely and I know this Snickers bar would make me feel less lonely, the co worker would simply say eat the candy bar then.  So if you are lonely and bored reach out or find an activity to do.

Tired - Any real overeater knows that when tired you just gorge on food and this will make you less tired.  Sometimes we find it easy to make it through the day but the later it gets the harder it its to resist.  Advice take naps, go to bed early you cant eat if your sleeping.   Treat your sleep routine as a diet pay attention to make sure you get the right amount of sleep.

I pay attention to these four things everyday and have found it easier to stick to my diet.  I need to learn the difference between hunger and emotions.  If you are trully physically hungary then eat but if it is an emotion that is the problem deal with the emotion.

My girlfriends house as become the lions den, the house has every kind of chocolate known to man and including one of my favorites chocolate butter crunch.  She has 2 young ones and they say the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree, she loves junk and so do the kids.  The 2 young ones are both overweight and all the relatives love them to death and buy all this junk for them. 

Witnessing this has saddened me, it brought back memories from my childhood.  I was the chubby kid that all well intentioned people love to feed, at times I felt like a zoo animal, relatives would love to watch me eat.  I could vividly remember being at a uncles house and was devouring a bowl of chips, my mother said “Georgie you had enough”, and I remembering my uncle chiding my mother “Marie how could you stop him from eating he’s making love to the chips”.  Even in adult life I cant even tell you how many times I got caught making love to my food when I thought no one was looking, it is most embarrassing. 

My girlfriend and I are in the honeymoon part of the relationship and really have any disagreements that are not tolerable.  The one thing that we have discussed is the mess that her house is, she is a clean person and the house is clean it’s just that everything is all over the place and nothing is ever thrown out.  Helped her clean the kids toy room, the room is what every child would want its big has carton figured wallpaper and a multi colored ceiling fan.  Just one problem not one of their toys since birth have been thrown out, so one wall that is covered with big ugly steel shelves filled with toys, cant see the couch because the toys are covered cant use the desk covered in toys, cant watch the TV covered in toys……..blah you get the point.  Well when helping her clean it I told it couldn’t be done without getting rid of 75% of the stuff that was in the room.  She could hardly throw anything out and things that were thrown out were brought back into the house by the kids, finally started hiding the bags in my car and got rid of it by my house.  So I am constantly nagging her about throwing out things and always stop her when she asks me if I want something, she’s getting a little bit better at getting rid of things. 

The other day I came home from work and sitting on the table is 1 pound Hershey bar with almonds, this is possibly my most favorite chocolate M&M’s run a close second.  My kids informed that this land mine was sitting in my stocking.  That night I brought that piece of chocolate over to the girlfriend’s house and added to the treasure trove of chocolate delights.  The girlfriend cursed me and said “throw it there is too much here already” the proceeded to throw out in the garbage.  I felt like John Belushi in Animal House the scene where they are throwing out the liquor and he looks like he just lost a loved one.  I took that thing right out of the garbage and declared that I was going to save it and bring it back some day when you need something sweet and put the candy bar in the glove compartment of my car. 

So my question is what should I do with the candy bar and who is more crazier me or my girlfriend.

Yesterday, I was going to make taco salad for dinner, no chips, sour cream or cheese and afterwards go to Costco.  My daughter calls me and tells me that my brother and his wife are stopping by and picking them up and they wouldn’t be home for dinner.  Okay, no sense in making he taco salad if I am the only one home, I was lost on what to do for dinner.  Next I found myself hungary because I didnt start to cook when I got home from work and really couldn’t make up my mind on what to do for dinner.  Next I found my thoughts thinking about just getting a few slices (most of us knows of what).

After playing this virtual game of tennis in my head, I stopped and really thought about what was going on.  It turns out that I truly dislike my sister-in-law and was angry that she decided to come over and do something with my kids because I knew it wasn’t my brother’s idea and destroy my plan for the evening.  Once I realized what the real problems was, I did what any normal person would do and prepared a dinner that was in my diet guidelines. 

Hopefully with the help of a higher power and this web-site I can learn how to eat like an adult and deal with my emotions.  How silly am I that I would over eat because I was angry for a silly reason but us emotinal eaters do.  Need to learn how to deal with all my emotions without eating, the biggest one to conquer is boredom. 

Did everything right today…….getting a jump on the New Year………did 40 mins of weight training in the morning……………….45 mins of cardio in the afternoon………stuck to my diet without a morsel…………not accounted for…………….

Today was my weigh in day.  I was scared to get on the scale.  Had all the answers depending on what I weighed in.  If I didn’t lose weight then that would be a success because of a couple a little mis-steps during the season.  If I gained weight I would be devastated because for the most part I was a good boy.   Well none of that happened, I had a 4LB weightloss…………….Yippee……………..It really stinks the way the scale controls my thinking…………….

When a forest fire is out of control fireman start another fire to contain the one that’s out of control.  I consider holiday eating a forest fire, so I took measures and used a control burn.  I am smart enough to realize that one cannot stick to a diet during the holiday season unless you live on a moutain and no one is coming to visit you.  So during the season on days when I knew that dieting wasnt an option I made sure I exercised and if the event was during the evening I made sure I followed my diet to the tee during the day, if the event was in the afternoon I made sure that I didnt eat the rest of the day knowing I had my share during the day.  When going out I pretty much didn’t put anything on the “NO” list because if we do that what is the only thing you are thinking about is what we cant have and aren’t really paying attention to what we are eating.  Being a weak individual I eventually will eat what is on the ”NO” list and then I become a failure and go into a full blown binge.  So without a ”NO” list I ate anything I wanted but kept it in moderation, not once during the season did I have a binge.  Yes, I ate chocolate but since I was allowed, literally it would be one or two pieces, lucked out because the box chocolates had sycamatics and I picked my favorites ones without eating half the box.  Since I didn’t break any rules there were no days where I would wake up and say “shit I blew my diet, “F” it I am going to have that sewer cap of a bagel loaded with cream cheese”, no I just continued eating less and exercising more.

The funny thing about plans is they never work.  Feeling like a million bucks today, so far I have been really doing well eating and exercise wise, yesterday I was flaw less.  Today went to the gym 35 minutes weight training and 45 minutes cardio.  While doing cardio I do visualation, you know seeinG the skinny me, the cheerful me and blah, blah.  Today just had my 2 pieces of fruit with high fiber cereal and green tea.   Getting ready to conquer the world and party with a purpose of self control.  Well while doing my chores get a call from a relative “cousin Jimmy’s coming you need to pick up a case of beer”.  That simple phone call has changed my plan, I have gone from having no alcohol to party central, informed my daughters they need to drive tonight because the party will be on.   This will not destrioy my diet plans but they will be side tracked.

Have a Merry Chirstmas……….